"Well, Iknownothingofitsofar, andcan'tunderstandit, , whetherthat'sduetomen'sbadqualitiesorwhetherit', , forinstance, , 'smore, amanisrarelyreadytoadmitanother'ssuffering (asthoughitwereadistinction).Whywon'theadmitit, doyouthink? BecauseIsmellunpleasant, becauseIhaveastupidface, , thereissufferingandsuffering; degrading, humiliatingsufferingsuchashumblesme—hunger, forinstance—mybenefactorwillperhapsallowme; butwhenyoucometohighersuffering—foranidea, forinstance—hewillveryrarelyadmitthat, , , especiallygenteelbeggars, oughtnevertoshowthemselves, 'sneighborsintheabstract, orevenatadistance, butatclosequartersit', intheballet, whereifbeggarscomein, theywearsilkenragsandtatteredlaceandbegforalmsdancinggracefully, , 'dbetterkeeptothechildren, , inthefirstplace, childrencanbelovedevenatclosequarters, evenwhentheyaredirty, evenwhentheyareugly (Ifancy, though, childrenneverareugly).ThesecondreasonwhyIwon'tspeakofgrown-uppeopleisthat, besidesbeingdisgustingandunworthyoflove, theyhaveacompensation—they'veeatentheappleandknowgoodandevil, andtheyhavebecome 'likegods.' 'teatenanything, , Alyosha? Iknowyouare, , too, sufferhorriblyonearth, theymustsufferfortheirfathers' sins, theymustbepunishedfortheirfathers, whohaveeatentheapple; 'ssins, andespeciallysuchinnocents! Youmaybesurprisedatme, Alyosha, butIamawfullyfondofchildren, , cruelpeople, theviolent, therapacious, —uptoseven, forinstance—aresoremotefromgrown-uppeople; theyaredifferentcreatures, asitwere, , inthecourseofhiscareerasaburglar, murderedwholefamilies, , , ....Youdon'tknowwhyIamtellingyouallthis, Alyosha? MyheadachesandIamsad."
