Sonya'sletterwrittenfromTroitsa, whichhadcomeasananswertoNicholas' prayer, waspromptedbythis: thethoughtofgettingNicholasmarriedtoanheiressoccupiedtheoldcountess' , andSonya'slifeinthecountess' househadgrownharderandharder, .
ButafewdaysbeforetheyleftMoscow, movedandexcitedbyallthatwasgoingon, shecalledSonyatoherand, insteadofreproachingandmakingdemandsonher, tearfullyimploredhertosacrificeherselfandrepayallthatthefamilyhaddoneforherbybreakingoffherengagementwithNicholas.
"Ishallnotbeatpeacetillyoupromisemethis."
Sonyaburstintohystericaltearsandrepliedthroughhersobsthatshewoulddoanythingandwaspreparedforanything, ', -sacrificeshehadbeenhappilyconsciousthattheyraisedherinherownesteemandinthatofothers, ; shefeltjealousofNatashawhohadneverexperiencedanythingofthissort, hadneverneededtosacrificeherself, , quietloveforNicholasapassionatefeelingwasbeginningtogrowupwhichwasstrongerthanprinciple, virtue, , whoselifeofdependencehadtaughtherinvoluntarilytobesecretive, havingansweredthecountessinvaguegeneralterms, avoidedtalkingwithherandresolvedtowaittillsheshouldseeNicholas, notinordertosethimfreebutonthecontraryatthatmeetingtobindhimtoherforever.
ThebustleandterroroftheRostovs' 'spresenceintheirhouse, despitehersincerepityforhimandforNatasha, , , thisfeelingthatProvidencewasinterveninginherpersonalaffairscheeredSonya.
AttheTroitsamonasterytheRostovsfirstbroketheirjourneyforawholeday.
