"Why, theisolationthatprevailseverywhere, aboveallinourage—ithasnotfullydeveloped, , wishestosecurethegreatestpossiblefullnessoflifeforhimself; butmeantimeallhiseffortsresultnotinattainingfullnessoflifebutself-destruction, , theyallkeepapart, eachinhisowngroove; eachoneholdsaloof, hideshimselfandhideswhathehas, fromtherest, , 'HowstrongIamnowandhowsecure,' andinhismadnesshedoesnotunderstandthatthemoreheheapsup, ; hehastrainedhimselfnottobelieveinthehelpofothers, inmenandinhumanity, , intheirmockery, , , ....But, untilthen, , andhisconductseemstobecrazy, amanmustsetanexample, andsodrawmen'ssoulsoutoftheirsolitude, andspurthemtosomeactofbrotherlylove, thatthegreatideamaynotdie."
Ourevenings, oneafteranother, , , notasblame, fortheystilllovedmeandtreatedmegood-humoredly, butthere', forbesidesenjoyinghisintelligence, Ibegantoperceivethathewasbroodingoversomeplaninhisheart, , , , indeed, aboutamonthafterhefirstbegantovisitme.
"Doyouknow," hesaidtomeonce, ", forsoonallwillbeexplained."
Sometimesanextraordinaryagitationwouldcomeoverhim, , andIthought, "Hewillsaysomethingdirectlynow." .
Oneday, quiteunexpectedlyindeed, afterhehadbeentalkingwithgreatfervoralongtime, Isawhimsuddenlyturnpale, andhisfaceworkedconvulsively, whilehestaredpersistentlyatme.
"What'sthematter?" Isaid; "doyoufeelill?"—hehadjustbeencomplainingofheadache.
"I...doyouknow...Imurderedsomeone."
Hesaidthisandsmiledwithafaceaswhiteaschalk."Whyisitheissmiling?" .
"Whatareyousaying?" Icried.
