ItwastheendofJune, andourmeetingwastotakeplaceatseveno'clockthenextdayontheoutskirtsofthetown—, returninghomeinasavageandbrutalhumor, IflewintoaragewithmyorderlyAfanasy, andgavehimtwoblowsinthefacewithallmymight, , , believeme, thoughit'sfortyyearsago, ; —Ididnotwanttosleepanymore—Iwenttothewindow—openedit, itlookedoutuponthegarden; Isawthesunrising; itwaswarmandbeautiful, thebirdsweresinging.
"What'sthemeaningofit?" Ithought."? No," Ithought, "Ifeelit', afraidofbeingkilled? No, that'snotit, that'snotitatall."...AndallatonceIknewwhatitwas: itwasbecauseIhadbeatenAfanasytheeveningbefore! Itallrosebeforemymind, itallwasasitwererepeatedoveragain; hestoodbeforemeandIwasbeatinghimstraightonthefaceandhewasholdinghisarmsstifflydown, hisheaderect, , andthatwasamanbeatingafellowcreature! Whatacrime! , whilethesunwasshining, theleaveswererejoicingandthebirdsweretrillingthepraiseofGod....Ihidmyfaceinmyhands, -bedtohisservants: "Mydearones, whydoyouwaitonme, whydoyouloveme, amIworthyourwaitingonme?"
"Yes, amIworthit?" flashedthroughmymind."AfterallwhatamIworth, thatanotherman, afellowcreature, madeinthelikenessandimageofGod, shouldserveme?" , "Mother, mylittleheart, intruthweareeachresponsibletoallforall, it'sonlythatmendon', theworldwouldbeaparadiseatonce."
