Ivantried "nottothink," butthat, too, , externalcharacter—, justassomethingwillsometimesobtrudeitselfupontheeye, andthoughonemaybesobusywithworkorconversationthatforalongtimeonedoesnotnoticeit, yetitirritatesandalmosttormentsonetillatlastonerealizes, andremovestheoffendingobject, oftenquiteatriflingandridiculousone—somearticleleftaboutinthewrongplace, ahandkerchiefonthefloor, abooknotreplacedontheshelf, andsoon.
Atlast, feelingverycrossandill-humored, Ivanarrivedhome, andsuddenly, aboutfifteenpacesfromthegardengate, heguessedwhatwasfrettingandworryinghim.
OnabenchinthegatewaythevaletSmerdyakovwassittingenjoyingthecoolnessoftheevening, andatthefirstglanceathimIvanknewthatthevaletSmerdyakovwasonhismind, , whenAlyoshahadbeentellinghimofhismeetingwithSmerdyakov, hehadfeltasuddentwingeofgloomandloathing, , ashetalked, Smerdyakovhadbeenforgottenforthetime; butstillhehadbeeninhismind, andassoonasIvanpartedwithAlyoshaandwaswalkinghome, theforgottensensationbegantoobtrudeitselfagain."Isitpossiblethatamiserable, contemptiblecreaturelikethatcanworrymesomuch?" hewondered, withinsufferableirritation.
