IthadbeguntogetduskwhenRakitin, crossingthepinecopsefromthehermitagetothemonastery, suddenlynoticedAlyosha, lyingfacedownwardsonthegroundunderatree, .
"Youhere, Alexey? Canyouhave—" , "Canyouhavecometothis?"
Alyoshadidnotlookathim, butfromaslightmovementRakitinatoncesawthatheheardandunderstoodhim.
"What'sthematter?" hewenton; butthesurpriseinhisfacegraduallypassedintoasmilethatbecamemoreandmoreironical.
"Isay, I'? Whatfooleryisthis? Youmightjustlookatme..."
Alyosharaisedhishead, , , however, butlookedawaytoonesideofhim.
"Doyouknowyourfaceisquitechanged? There'? Havetheybeenill-treatingyou?"
"Letmealone," saidAlyoshasuddenly, withawearygestureofhishand, stilllookingawayfromhim.
"Oho! Sothat'showwearefeeling! , Alyosha, youhavesurprisedme, doyouhear? 'slongsinceI'...."
Alyoshaatlastlookedathim, butvaguely, asthoughscarcelyunderstandingwhathesaid.
"Canyoureallybesoupsetsimplybecauseyouroldmanhasbeguntostink? Youdon'tmeantosayyouseriouslybelievedthathewasgoingtoworkmiracles?" exclaimedRakitin, genuinelysurprisedagain.
"Ibelieved, Ibelieve, Iwanttobelieve, andIwillbelieve, whatmoredoyouwant?" criedAlyoshairritably.
"Nothingatall, ! why, ....SonowyouareinatemperwithyourGod, youarerebellingagainstHim; Hehasn'tgivenpromotion, Hehasn'tbestowedtheorderofmerit! Eh, youareaset!" AlyoshagazedalongwhilewithhiseyeshalfclosedatRakitin, andtherewasasuddengleaminhiseyes...butnotofangerwithRakitin.
"IamnotrebellingagainstmyGod; Isimply 'don'tacceptHisworld.' "Alyoshasuddenlysmiledaforcedsmile.
