ThoughIdeclaredabove, andperhapstoohastily, thatIshouldnotexplainorjustifymyhero, , , forthetriumphofsomepreconceivedidea—oh, no, notatall—whathesawbeforeallwasonefigure—thefigureofhisbelovedelder, , forthepastyear, beenconcentrated—andperhapswronglyso—ononebeing, , thatallhisyoungstrengthandenergycouldnotbutturntowardsthatideal, eventotheforgettingatthemoment "ofeveryoneandeverything." Herememberedafterwardshow, onthatterribleday, hehadentirelyforgottenhisbrotherDmitri, aboutwhomhehadbeensoanxiousandtroubledthedaybefore; hehadforgotten, too, totakethetwohundredroublestoIlusha'sfather, "thehigherjustice" "justice" lookedforbyAlyoshainevitablytooktheshapeofmiraclestobewroughtimmediatelybytheashesofhisadoredteacher? Why, everyoneinthemonasterycherishedthesamethoughtandthesamehope, eventhosewhoseintellectsAlyosharevered, FatherPa?ssyhimself, , untroubledbydoubts, , justice, hethirstedfor, notsimplymiracles.
