Here, wemustnote, bytheway, onecertainfact: hewasfirmlypersuadedthatFyodorPavlovitchwouldoffer, orperhapshadoffered, Grushenkalawfulwedlock, 'suneasinessrosefromnotknowingwhichofthemtochoose, , duringthosedaysitneveroccurredtohimtothinkoftheapproachingreturnofthe "officer," thatis, ofthemanwhohadbeensuchafatalinfluenceinGrushenka'slife, , , too, , , weigheddownbyallthehideoushorrorofhisstrugglewithhisownfatherforthiswoman, hewasincapableofimagininganydangermoreterrible, ' disappearance, , inthe "officer's" firstletterwhichhadbeenshowntoMitya, thepossibilityofhisnewrival', high-flown, , , besides, noticedatthatmoment, herememberedafterwards, acertaininvoluntaryproudcontemptforthismissivefromSiberiaonGrushenka'; sothatbydegreeshehadcompletelyforgottentheofficer'sexistence.
Hefeltthatwhatevermightcomelater, whateverturnthingsmighttake, hisfinalconflictwithFyodorPavlovitchwascloseuponhim, 'sdecision, alwaysbelievingthatitwouldcomesuddenly, : "Takeme, I'myoursforever," , thenhewouldbearherawayatonce, asfar, farawayaspossible; tothefarthestendofRussia, ifnotoftheearth, thenhewouldmarryher, andsettledownwithherincognito, sothatnoonewouldknowanythingaboutthem, there, here, , oh, then, anewlifewouldbeginatonce!
