Kolyaleanedagainstthefencewithanairofdignity, , , buthithertohehadalwaysmaintainedanappearanceofdisdainfulindifferencewhenhewasmentioned, andhehadeven "criticized" ; : tobeginwith, hehadtoshowhimselfathisbest, toshowhisindependence, "Orhe'llthinkofmeasthirteenandtakemeforaboy, ? 'sapityIamsoshort, , 'mhideous, butI''ttalktoofreely; ifIfallintohisarmsallatonce, hemaythink—Tfoo! howhorribleifheshouldthink—!"
; hedidnotmindsomuchhis "hideous" face, -marktoshowhisheight, ! hegrewveryslowly, "hideous"; onthecontrary, itwasratherattractive, withafair, paleskin, , livelygrayeyeshadafearlesslook, ; small, veryred, butnotverythick, lips; hisnosewassmallandunmistakablyturnedup."I'vearegularpugnose, aregularpugnose," Kolyausedtomuttertohimselfwhenhelookedinthelooking-glass, andhealwaysleftitwithindignation."ButperhapsIhaven'tgotacleverface?" hesometimesthought, , howeverbitterthemomentsbeforethelooking-glassweretohim, hequicklyforgotthem, andforgotthemforalongtime, "abandoninghimselfentirelytoideasandtoreallife," asheformulatedittohimself.
, Kolyacouldseethathelookeddelighted."Canhebesogladtoseeme?" Kolyawondered, , inpassing, thatAlyosha'-cutcoat, asoft, roundhat, , -humoredexpression; 'ssurprise, Alyoshacameouttohimjustashewas, .
"Hereyouareatlast! Howanxiouswe'vebeentoseeyou!"
", Iamgladtomakeyouracquaintance.I'velongbeenhopingforanopportunity, andhaveheardagreatdealaboutyou," Kolyamuttered, alittlebreathless.
