"'saswinishinvention, , Ididn', theoverflowofmyheart, -dayshewouldbemylady, , rioting, , too, forthey'lltakeitgreedily, thatmustbeadmitted, : notallofthem, butithappened, -paths, littledarkback-alleysbehindthemainroad—thereonefindsadventuresandsurprises, , , therewerenosuchback-alleysintheliteralsense, , you', ; amInotabug, amInotanoxiousinsect? InfactaKaramazov! Oncewewent, awholelotofus, forapicnic, , itwaswinter, andIbegansqueezingagirl'shand, , asweet, gentle, , , poorthing, thatIshouldcomenextdaytomakeheranoffer (Iwaslookeduponasagoodmatch, too).ButIdidn' (wewerealwayshavingdances), —, stillangry, andstill, perhaps, ''mfulloflowdesires, andlovewhat'slow, I''reblushing; —waysideblossoms à laPauldeKock—thoughthecruelinsecthadalreadygrownstronginmysoul.I'veaperfectalbumofreminiscences, , '', I'mgoingtotellyousomethingmorecurious; anddon'tbesurprisedthatI'mgladtotellyou, insteadofbeingashamed."
"YousaythatbecauseIblushed," Alyoshasaidsuddenly."Iwasn'tblushingatwhatyouweresayingoratwhatyou'."
"You? Come, that'sgoingalittletoofar!"
"No, it'snottoofar," saidAlyoshawarmly (obviouslytheideawasnotanewone)."Theladder'sthesame.I'matthebottomstep, andyou'reabove, ''."
"Thenoneoughtnottosteponatall."
"Anyonewhocanhelpithadbetternot."
"Butcanyou?"
"Ithinknot."
