瑞·古德/RonGold
Mysonisgrowingup, , ?
Whenhewaslittle, Iwasoneofthoseregimented, , IaddressedeventhemostseeminglyinsignificantexperienceifIthoughtitdealtwithsomethingfundamental.“I’mdoingthisforthelonghaul.”I’, Ihavetohopemyinstinctswereright.
Mychancesforguidancedwindledaily, .
Still, Irepeatthebasicstohimwhenhedoesn’“formative”years, Idemandedhisfullattentionandmaybethatunrelentingconsistencywillsaveusboth.
IknowthatIhaven’tlosthimcompletely, notyetanyway, becauseofthelookhegavemetheotherdaywhenIdroppedhimoffatschool.
“Iloveyou.”Isaid, asalways, , he’llsay,“Iloveyou, too, bye.”buthedidn’t, ’s14，whatdoIexpect?Thenhelookedstraightatme.“Iloveyou.”.
, butthewholeuniversebecamestillandIcould’, ’snotsayingandknowwhathemeans:“Iloveyou, too, Mom, , butthereweresomepeoplewalkingbyandtheymighthaveheardmeandthenteasedme, butIsuredidn’tmeantohurtyourfeelings, andIdidn’twantyoutoleavewithouthearingit, .”
, andIwouldn’’’mhere, thathecanalwayscountonme, andsoItellhimthisoverandover, evenwhenhesays,“Mom, youalreadytoldmeathousandtimes.”
Sincethedayhebecameapartofme, , almosteverythingI’veeverdonehasbeenwrappedupinreadyinghimtobewithoutme, andnowI’, butthatlookhadtobeagoodsign.
I’vetoldhimthatIlovehimeveryday, two, threeor12timesaday, for14
’’t.
I’llriskhavingmysonrollhiseyesatme, andI’lltellhimagainandagain:Talktome, I’, I’llhelpyou.I’.
AndathousandtimesadayI’llsay“Iloveyou”.Sometimeshe’’t, I’llhearitanyway.
我的儿子在慢慢长大，我感到害怕，更确切地说是恐惧。美色、驾车、酒精和毒品，我该如何使他免受这些事物的影响？
