德布·普劳斯·富尔顿/DebPlouseFulton
Icanhonestlysayitwasthebestoftimesandtheworstoftimes.
Iwasjoyfullyexpectingmyfirstchild, atthesametimethatmyonce-
energetic, zestfulmotherwaslosingherbattlewithabraintumor.
Fortenyears, myfiercelyindependentandcourageousmotherhadfought, , , finally, atonlyfifty-five, shebecametotallydisabled-unabletospeak, walk, eatordressonherown.
Asshegrewcloserandclosertodeath, , butalsothatsheandmybabywouldneverknoweachother.
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Webroughtmotherhometoherownbedinherownhouse, , , sheknew.
OnFebruary3，1989，ataboutthesametimemylaborstarted, , Icalledherhomeandaskedforthephonetobeputtomom’sear.
“!You’?”“Yes!”
Whatawonderfulword!Thefirstclearwordshe’dspokeninmonths!
WhenIcalledagainanhourlater, thenurseatherhousetoldmetheimpossible:Momwassittingup, !
“Mom, it’saboy!Youhaveanewgrandson!”
“Yes!Yes!Iknow!”
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BythetimeIbroughtJacobhome, Momwassittinginherchair, .
Theyknew.
Fortwomoreweeks, motherclucked, , , shegaveusjoy.
Thenshequietlyslippedbackintoacomaand, afterthevisitsfromallherchildren, wasfinallyfreeofthepainsandconfinesofabodythatnolongerdidherwill.
Memoriesofmyson’sbirthwillalwaysbebittersweetforme, , andoftenintertwined, .
老实说，我最幸福也是最悲惨的时刻到了——在我欣喜地期待着我第一个孩子降生的同时，往日精力充沛、热情开朗的母亲却在与脑肿瘤病魔的斗争中逐渐失利。
10年来，母亲以惊人的毅力独自与病魔抗争，虽然手术和药物治疗都没能获得成功，但她从未因此失去笑容。如今，年仅55岁的她最终全身瘫痪——不能说话，不能走路，连吃饭、穿衣都不能自理。
正当死神日益逼近她时，我体内的孩子快要出世了，最令我担心的是他们没有相见的机缘。我悲恸，不仅因为将要失去母亲，还因为她和我的孩子将永远无法相识。
我并非杞人忧天。就在距预产期只剩几周的时候，母亲陷入了深度昏迷状态。医生们也无能为力，他们说母亲的时间耗尽了。还说，没必要再输液了，她是不会醒的。
