AndyetIstillsaidtomyself， ifitistruethatshedoesnotloveme， ifnothinginmecoulddeservetheblessingofherlove， withoutwhichthereisnolongeranycharminlife， isthatareasonfordying？ DoIexistformyownpersonalhappiness？ No， mywholeexistenceisdevotedtoher， ？ AmIthen， morethananangeloradeity？ Iloveher， true， evenshouldn'tIamreadytosacrificeeverythinggladlyforhersake， everything， eventhehopeofbeinglovedbyher； thereisnodevotednessofwhichIamnotcapableforher， foroneofhersmiles， ？ Isshenotthesoleaimofmylife？ Thatshemayshowindifferencetome， evenhateme， willbemymisfortune， ， sothatitdoesnotinjureherhappiness？ Yes， ， tosurroundherexistencewithmine， toserveherasabarrieragainstalldangers， toofferhermyheadasastepping-stone， toplacemyselfunceasinglybetweenherandallsorrows， withoutclaimingreward， ， andtorememberhiminthehourofdanger！ Alas！ Ifsheonlyallowmetogivemylifetoanticipatehereverydesire， allhercaprices； ifshebutpermitmetokisswithrespectheradoredfootprints； ifshebutconsenttoleanuponmeattimesamidstthedifficultiesoflife， ， doessheowemegratitude？ IsitherfaultthatIloveher？ Mustshe， onthataccount， believeherselfconstrainedtoloveme？ No！ Shemaysportwithmydevotions， repaymyserviceswithhate， andrepulsemyidolatrywithscorn， withoutmyhavingforamomenttherighttocomplainofthatangel， ， Ishouldstill， atthedayofmydeathhavedischargednothingoftheinfinitedebtthatmyexistenceowestoher.
Such， mybelovedAdele， —suchgreathappinessthatIcannotthinkofitwithouttrembling， andscarcelydaretobelieveinit.
